This should be the text for the Novutopia website, but I don't know what to write. This is strange, because so much happened in the last five years (means: since I joined this tribe), and even more in the last months, since BuddhaHill disappeared and Novutopia came into existence.
Perhaps the most significant and increasingly reoccurring happening is to not recognize my actions as mine. It means that these actions aren't a repetition of past actions, that the controlling mind isn't fast enough to block or divert a spontaneous answer (or, at least, an uncontrolled reaction) to a situation. When this started happening, usually a great irritation followed. Obviously the mind didn't like that something happened without its allowance, and feared every kind of catastrophical consequences. Nevertheless, up to now I couldn't observe any unpleasant consequence for these losses of control. So the mind started relaxing with these situations, the irritation left the place to feelings of relief or joy, and the fear of the consequences became a little thrill to see what will happen next.
There is still a lot of space for expanding this spontaneity; the direction is clear, Pan and the tribe give full support to this, and for sure sharing this writing will be like broadcasting to the existence a request for more of these situations.
I am a little thrilled by the possible consequences...
(In the meantime the text has happened).
In love and gratitude to Pan and all the friends
Yassan